Happy Birthday Chad

You know how much I love and miss you. I tell you everyday, and I can feel you listening.  I know you wouldn’t want me to cry, but sometimes the pain comes in such big waves that I can barely stand it. I’m not sad for you. I know you’re safe and your healing is complete. You are thriving under the wings of our precious Savior. But I’m sad for me. I didn’t do enough.  Things I should have said and didn’t.  I know feeling this way won’t bring you back, but it is so hard knowing you’re truly gone. 49 years ago, you came into this world and made it a better place. What a blessing you were. A cute little guy with the sweetest face. When you were 3 or 4, you told me you were going to live with me forever, and you have. You have always lived in my heart, through the good and the not so good. I love you❣ I miss you. When you left, you took a piece of my heart, but you left me a piece of yours. I will never stop missing you. Until we meet again….  Love, Mom